Mere existence

It is said that crying has been a sign of being alive since we were born

Sure it is, until a certain point when you are left out of options.

The time when you can feel the wave of tears within yourself and the only thing

you can do is wait for it to hit you and try to not drown in it.

When you can feel the the aching pain in your head

which does not stop , until your body shuts off.

When the littlest thing such as facing someone in the eye

seems like the hardest thing to do, especially when you know

that someone is not the one to understand.

Who could anyway?

You couldn't.

The people who were supposed to

didn't know you enough to understand

nor did they try.

You are alone

and that should be enough

but what happens when

you're not even sure

where to look for yourself anymore.